Imagine This

Imagine what could happen if we gave God our all.
What would happen if each of us served God with our WHOLE heart?
What if we listened keenly to Him daily and actually obeyed?
What if our love for God overflowed so much that everyone who crossed our path would automatically experience a little bit of that love?
Imagine what this world would be like if our first thought as we woke each morning was “How can I bring You glory today Lord?”
What if all of us just HAD to tell someone about God’s love?
What if we got DESPERATE?
Friends, what if God was all that you needed?
What if we wouldn’t give up on Him when things were not going smoothly?
What if our praise did not depend on our circumstance or our mood?
Imagine what could take place if we committed our lives to serving and obeying God.
What if we longed for holiness more than company?
What if we sought after righteousness instead of acceptance?
What if we desired intimacy with God more than comfort?
What if the day we looked forward to most was the day when we see Christ face to face
And not graduation… or getting that promotion… meeting that special someone or having that first child?
Young people, what if we didn’t care what people thought?
What if we stopped denying Christ with our… silence?
What if we weren’t satisfied with where we are now?
What if we actually did something about that!
What if we wouldn’t limit God?
What if we would search our hearts?
What if we became FANATICS?
Oh Lord, what would happen if we would let go
of all this world has to offer and
just run…
run…
so hard after You.

Because You Asked Me To.

Who would've thought that being a slave could lead to true emancipation? God's Word says that we are no longer slaves of the world but slaves to Christ and somehow by becoming slaves to Christ we gain complete freedom.
And so Lord, I present my life to you - handcuffed- for I am Your slave 'til my last breath.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Although it takes immense discipline, I will meditate on Your Word daily
Because You asked me to.
Though sometimes the hardest thing is to go back & say " I'm sorry", I will Lord...
Because You asked me to.
Though I don't feel like mending that broken bond or that fading relationship; I will Lord...
Because You asked me to.
You know by now Lord, that I'm tired of failing, but I wll persevere...
Because You asked me to.
Whenever my circumstace seems quite unfair, I won't complain...
Because You asked me to.
Though I might feel awkward, I will open my mouth and WITNESS.
Because You asked me to.
Even though I want to know now which course my life will take; I will wait...
Because You asked me to.
Though I often get anxious about the future Lord, I will be still
Because You asked me to.
Though they discourage me and offend me, I will wish them well & bless them...
Because You asked me to.
Though it seems easy to forget that my body is a temple, I will make purity my aim...
Simply because You asked me to.
Although I sometimes want to control my life, plan my future & my career, I will turn them all over to You...
Because You asked me to.
Though the world teaches us to be selfish with time & money, I will give generously...
Just because You asked me to.
Thought it's tempting to question Your promises when things look gray, I will not doubt You...
Because You asked me to.

Because You asked me to, I will stand up for You.
Because You asked me to, I will answer Your call.
Because my life will be naught unless it brings YOU glory,
I WILL do... what You ask me to.

My Cry

"Father I just want to stop for a minute & say I love You. I just want to thank You for being patient with me; for giving me another chance. You've always been there for me."

I would be selfish beyond recovery if I were to sit here in my little Christian corner & enjoy Christ for myself.

I know what it feels like to want more...
I know how it feels to realise that no friend, parent, loved one, gift or amount of money can satisfy the soul 100%. Even as a Christian I've had my days [correction: months] of feeling hopeless. I've questioned God...just like you might have. My friends could tell you that I've made enough mistakes to last... for a while & well, like yourself, I think I've had my fair share of pain. I've been on the road of confusion and loneliness many a times. But at the end of it all, (or maybe I should say "in the midst of it all") GOD IS STILL FAITHFUL. I just want to say that again... GOD IS STILL FAITHFUL no matter what your circumstnces look like or no matter what your emotions tell you. Friends, no one is more faithful than He is. Trust me, no one loves you like He does. All that you've ever wanted lies in His touch. His embrace can heal your heart. His voice can enlighten your darkness. His BLOOD can save you. =)

I know you've heard this before but GOD IS PERFECT. He isn't like us. He doesn't know what it is to mess up & I can't help but find comfort in that. This life isn't perfect and so pain will be inevitable but what if you did not have to endure it on your own? Don't you want to understand the freedom there is when we cast our burdens on Him? If your burden is not light, give it to God. I really mean give Him EVERYTHING and He will give you comfort.
Give God a chance. Please. He's given us many. Break down those walls of doubt, fear, pride and skepticism that prevent you from running to the One who loved you first. Give Him a chance to have your whole life this time. Don't ever think that things are too bad for God to handle. Just tell Him that you need Him and that you are His and have faith that He will take you on a new journey.

If you've never given your life to Christ or if you've only given Him a part of your life, then join me in taking a stance. Choose to dedicate or re-dedicate your life to the only Saviour. If there's a part of you that is not completely fulfilled, if there's a part of you that still desires something more from life, then that means there's a part of you that knows you should draw closer to Christ.

Salvation was not made available to us because Christ randomly felt like leaving His throne to experience the 'thrill' of crucifixion on Earth.
HE DID IT FOR YOU.
He was not forced. He CHOSE to do it for YOU.
God- the king of the world; the creator of Heaven- became flesh [FOR YOU]
He subjected Himself to every kind of pain possible [FOR YOU]
He allowed sinners to ridicule Him and de-crown Him [FOR YOU]
He allowed men to spit on Him and abuse Him [FOR YOU]
He allowed a crown of THORNS to be placed on His royal head and His sides to be pierced [YUP...that would be FOR YOU as well]
He endured the pain and the humiliation [just because HE WANTS YOU]
Yes, it's unbelievable but it's true!
Don't believe me?
I bet you've never wondered then why He did not call it off, why He did not cry "You've taken this too far. ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!!" ?
You see, He knew all along that you'd be worth it.
God became like an insect in His OWN company [for OUR SAKE].

He is waiting...God is waiting on you to come to Him, to receive His gift ( and if you've already received it, then to enjoy His gift). He's waiting on you to get closer to Him.

I can picture Him glancing at those nail-pierced hands daily, with no regret in His heart and only love in His eyes, as He whispers to an angel "It was worth it. You see, I'm just waiting on this one to realise that I am MORE THAN ENOUGH."

"And without faith it is impossible to please to God."

Faith...
Up until recently, I had a different and rather incomplete perspective of what faith is. What does it really mean to have/exercise faith?
Well, I thought faith was mainly believing something or finding a way to convince yourself of something, though there isn't necessarily full evidence of it. I also figured that having great faith included something like 'speaking things into being'.
So if I simply say, "I will be successful", is that having faith?
I guess we can agree that simply saying it will not suffice but we must also believe...right?
Okay so how about "Lord, surely I believe that You will allow me to become... or to receive..."
Sounds better right?
But does it stop there? Does faith -in its truest sense- stop at belief?
Am I really exercising faith by solely thinking or saying that "I believe" ?

"Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see."

-When we believe that it is going to rain, we bring an umbrella.
-When we expect a financial crisis in the future, we save more now.
-When we believe that the temperature will decrease significantly,we carry a coat.
There is no guarantee that any of these will happen, but because we are conviced, we take action.
When we believe, expect, or are convinced... WE GET READY; WE ACT.
And so similarly, when God tells us that He is going to do something or we say that we believe, WE SHOULD PREPARE ourselves and then wait expectantly with outstretched palms as opposed to tapping our fingers and aimlessly looking around...

Remember...
"Faith without works is dead."

My favourite example of extreme faith in the Bible is the story of Abraham and Isaac.

" By faith Abraham, when God tested him, offered Isaac as a sacrifice. He who had received the promises was about to sacrifice his one and only son, even though God had said to him, 'It is through Isaac that your offspring will be reckoned.' Abraham reasoned that God could raise the dead, and figuratively speaking, he did receive Isaac back from death."

It amazes me still! The willingness of Abraham lines up with his faith. He must have been confused for a moment. "...but God I thought You said..."
WoW.
-God is really the only one with the last say. [Amen]
-God's promises always come true. [Thank God!]
-God is not a God of confusion. [Praise God]
Abraham was so sure that God wasn't trying to punish him. He was so sure that some way, somehow God's promises would still stand.
He was man of GREAT faith.

~* Lord,if I can be like Abraham, then that is my desire. I know it will require enduring difficult tests and trials that result in confusion, but I pray dear God that the journey I am currently on, will lead me to a place where my faith will be increased tremendously. For I now understand that without faith, it is impossible to please You. *~

Simply, truly...Love

Love.
Teach me to love.

"And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love." [1Corinthians 13:13]

Love...
Teach me how to love in spite of.
For if I know how to love sincerely...
then I can say that I sincerely know You.

"Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love." [1John4:8]

I fail to love when I unwillingly give or assist.
I fail to love when I stereotype in a judgemental way.
I fail to love when I put myself first.
I fail to love when I fail to serve.

"This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins." [1John3:24]

Sacrifice.
Is that then the greatest manifestation of love?

"For God so loved the world that He gave His ONLY..." [John3:16]

Over and over again mention is made of Christ's death as God's greatest sign of love.
What can we then give to You Oh Lord? How can we profess our love to a holy & perfect God?

1. Obedience
" If you love me, you will obey my commands."
"This is love for God: to obey his commands. And his commands are not burdensome, for everyone born of God overcomes the world." [1John5:3-4]

WoW. I've said that I love You on many occasions, but have I really been obeying You?
Teach me obedience Lord, for it speaks louder than words.

2. Love one another
" If anyone says, 'I love God' yet hates his brother, he is a liar. For anyone who does not love his brother, whom he has seen, cannot love God, whom he has not seen." [1John4:20]

"Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. All men will know that you are my disciples if you love one another." [John13:34,35]

So I've been gathering over the past few days that in order to truly love God, I must first learn to love sincerely, from a pure heart. My actions, words and even thoughts must be saturated with love.
If the love of God is in me, I MUST love EVERYONE...EVERYDAY.

Getting to know me

So this isn't my regular type of post...but I decided to do it anyway.

1. I have to humble myself before God everyday…it’s the only way that I can be anything near Christ-like.

2. I’m spoilt with love. I ‘m used to be treated well. I’m not spoilt in the sense that I always get what I want though.

3. I like painting for two reasons: it gives me a sense of accomplishment and it presents an opportunity to replicate something that’s beautiful in its own way.

4. I think I shortchange myself.

5. Ok so I definitely shortchange myself :|

6. I really like the idea of being healthy and fit but actualizing that desire requires so much work and discipline.

7. I don’t like when I’m disliked. I know we shouldn’t really care in situations like those, especially if it is for no good reason or no reason at all, but it isn’t a good feeling. Don’t worry, I would not compromise anything in situations like that though.

8. I’d rather hang with guys than girls because they are more laid-back and I somewhat feel more accepted around them. Most of my close friends are girls though and I cherish them dearly.

9.Adventure interests me. Anything with heights excites me. (Ziplining for example). I’ve also always wanted to ride a motorbike (just to see what it’s like.)

10. Sometimes I find it hard to open up to people. To me, it is like giving someone something to carry and not being sure if they even want to carry it. So I guess I feel like people aren’t obliged to listen furthermore be interested.

11. I like listening to people. I’m not really the type to “just make conversation” so when I ask you if you would do something or about what you want to do in the future or what you learnt today, it’s because I’m actually interested.

12. I’m not really a phone person.

13. I enjoy my own company. I like being alone at times but there are also times when I hate it.

14. One day I hope to repeat Kirk Franklin’s words “ My entire life is a miracle.” One point of reference he made was that “I have a large choir but I’m not a singer. All I do is talk.”

15. I believe in happiness; but I also believe it comes and goes rather easily. Joy and peace however, can withstand storms.

16. I enjoy admiring nature. It’s definitely a source of peace for me.

17. I’m pretty reserved.

18. My mission is to love like Christ did. And though I won’t always succeed, I won’t ever stop trying. I love you.

Seek ye first

If God is not enough, what can possibly be?

What can truly be more satisfying than the Creator and the Saviour himself?
What can soothe the soul that always yearns for more?
If not Love himself,
then who?
If not Hope itself,
then what?
*sigh*

Is there something else in life worth seeking after 100%?
The things which I chase after last, but only for a while.
All that my hands reach for and all that my eyes envy will fail at some point.
But Him?
He never dies. His love never fades and His glory always shines.
Oh when will we realise that the joys of this life can be deceiving?!
Its alluring nature must never find us thinking that we can't find something sweeter than the taste of earthly pleasures.

-Seek ye first the Kingdom of God -

Mmmm. That's it! That is indeed God's desire for me.
"Seek me first", He whispers " and all that is mine; all that is good, will be yours."

Seek ye first the Kingdom of God - for it is the foundation on which immortal pleasures are built.

Does Paradise Entice You?

OhMaGosh, if heaven started tomorrow, would you be satisfied?
Think of all the things that are great in your life, all the things you want to experience, all the things that bring you joy. If tomorrow those things were instantly replaced for something greater (God in His purest form), would you be excited?
Honestly.
If starting tomorrow, as Christians, all we had was God himself and all we did was praise Him & be in awe & bond with Him, WOULD THAT BE ENOUGH??

Does heaven truly excite us?
Think about it. I can just hear some of the answers that you subconsciously whisper in your minds.
- " Heaven? Of course! I mean after all, isn't that our goal?"
- " Yup, that's why we got saved isn't it?"
- " Yes it sounds like a nice place because it's perfect!"
I remember my answer to that question. It was " I'd be excited about going to heaven, yeah, sometime in the future when Jesus comes & all that stuff happens." But then God asked me, "What about now? Would you be excited to go now?"
"What God? Why would I need to think about going now?"
He gave me time to search my heart but tonight He came back for an answer. What I found prior to His visit scared me.

If God came & whispered to you, "Hey, Come on. Heaven starts tomorrow" would your heart race with excitement or would you be like "um ok cool"? Would you happily let go of your present joys? Would you secretly be just a tad bit disappointed because you were just two years away from the perfect job? Or because 2010 was supposed to be your year to shine? Would you ask God for a bit more time here because you hoped to be married in a few years or maybe so that you could experience the miracle of childbirth first? If God said "Heaven tomorrow", would he be interrupting our lives?

After searching and seeking, the truth saddened my heart for I realised just how wrong this sounded if as Christians, heaven did not truly excite us NOW. I realised that if God ALONE is not really & truly ENOUGH for us right now, then it is impossible for the idea of Heaven to genuinely excite us NOW.
That thought scared me.

Is God only enticing when He shows up with the accessories of life? Does God only appeal to you because he has promised you something great in the future or because your life is currently an excellent reflection of his abundant blessings?
Don't think for a second that we accepted Christ because we were truly desirious of Him. We didn't even know Him, remember? We accepted because we realised that we need Him. We accepted him because HE CHOSE US... & it's great that He did & it's great that we then chose to seek Him that we may be blessed and whole. But if Christ called you to live with him, without the things, dreams & relationships we have here and just glorify Him with complete contentment, would - you - be - thrilled?
We do realise that that's what Heaven is like right? Have we realised that Heaven is so perfect because all that exists is God, his angels, his children, perpetual praise and a satisfaction & joy that is immortal?

So I found my answer just in time.
" Yes Lord, the thought of Heaven right now would delight me."
I have learned that extreme pain will be experienced at some point because this is the flawed version of life, but thankfully God is greater than all pain. I have also learned that the joys of this life are exquisite but they are merely a sample of The Real Thing.

Unconditional Love

There's a part of me that has always craved love.
A love that would fill the gap when parental love just could not suffice.
A love that'd make me feel like a Queen
who, in her finest gown spins on the dance floor
& the world watches - amazed at her grace and glory.
I've longed for a love that would occur naturally;
a love that would not dare let me go.
A whisper so sweet, it calms me.
A touch so enchanted, it revives me.

But when oh Lord, did I get here?
When did You become more than enough??
I need not search for You professed your Love a long time ago.
It was I who was on your mind when you hung from that cross!
Oh... what love so Divine.

How Great is your desire for me that you should
woo me & serenade me,
comfort me & heal me,
fight for me & even... die for me.

As I reach for your face my Lord,
I ask that you fill my cup.
For once I have your love,
I will thirst no more.

The love of others wanes in comparison to yours.
The touch of man dwindles and fades when compared with yours.
For ONLY you can truly satisfy.

You never left, even when I lost faith.
You complained not once
when I indecisively ran to and from you...
Your comfort is incomparable to any I've known.
Your embrace... stills my soul.

Withold from me no portion of your love dear God!
For I am yours...
&
You
are
mine. :-)

Be Bold. Stand Up for what you Believe in.

"Stand up for what you believe in." Hmm, this becomes a little difficult when we're not fully sure of what we believe in doesn't it? If we have nothing that we will adamantly stand by then we have nothing to stand up for. And "if we stand for nothing..." well you know how the rest of that saying goes.
But are you comfortable with falling for anything? Is that why you question everything? I notice that we've become a very "safe" people. You see it's safer to stay in the middle; to stand on the fence...or so we think.

We were all made with an innate desire to worship; to give praise to someone or something outside of ourselves. Most people can admit that but we seem to want to play it safe because having 100% faith in God seems confusing and maybe even impractical; but just because we don't fully understand something or cannot fully explain it, doesn't mean that it's not true. That just usually means that it's simply beyond our comprehension...that's all. So go ahead, dare yourself to believe...To have Faith.He is a God of Faith. That's what He requires- faith.

What reward should we get for believing in only what we can see or understand? What should be granted unto us for simply believing only that which we can explain? What's so superior about that?
How much would we/ could we credit God if He were so simplistic & visible & tangible & audible that we had absolutely no questions? If how He did what He did and continues to do, was easily explainable and comprehensible by all, would that not lower His standards or bring us closer to His level? But maybe that's what we want right? Is that why we continue to question? Are we looking for a means to console our badly bruised egos or our bitter hearts because we realise that WE fall short?? That we infact are inferior?

We try to ignore our spiritual side but we fail to recognise that we are spiritual beings & that aside from the world that we can see and feel, there is also a spiritual world. We all belong to someone. God's arms are wide open, ready to accept those who will surrender. Why should we have to make a decision to do so, you ask? If He made us shouldn't we automatically be His? Well... we are all His creations but not all His children. Seeing that Lucifer rebelled, we now all fall short and now must choose to be His child through accepting Christ (the bridge between man & God, who is ALSO God). Sounds a tad bit confusing right? And so that's how we now have people questioning Christ and the Trinity, because according to one, "It makes almost no sense." But umm excuse me... did God saying "Let there be an expanse between the waters to separate water from water." and it being so, make sense to you? Did Jesus' miracles make sense to you or Jonah's survival in the belly of a large fish? I'm sorry but when exactly did we come to the concensus that it all HAD to make sense?

That is the beauty of our God! He does what is beyond our imagination, intellect and ability YET made us superior to His other creations. And as His creations, it is our duty to submit to the Creator and to seek Him for ourselves. I can't spell, describe or draw God for you. Each man must embark on his own journey to seek the Lord. As Jeremiah 29:13 says "You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart."Sure I still have a few unanswered questions about what's really important and what to believe but I'm holding very dear to me His words : "Call to me & I will answer you & tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know." - Jer 33:3.

I've mentioned before that I am on a mission and I mean it. I believe that there is only ONE TRUTH and as bold of a statement as that is, I will stand by it.

What are you choosing to stand by?

The Spoilt Child

I wish things never went the way they did.
I wish Your dreams were mine...
OR that my dreams were Yours.
I’m so selfish by nature, You may have realised. Have I forgotten that I’m a slave to You now & that really and truly, I should have no agenda of my own?
I suppose I just went along with Your free Gift Lord; not necessarily accepting the fact that with the Gift comes death to self. It seems I thought the Gift was more of an accessory to life.
You should’ve found me repulsive because of that but instead... You called me.
You called me closer and closer to You but I fought and squirmed like a child displeased with what You had to offer.
“No thank you!” I screamed. “Can’t you see I’m fine!?”
You didn’t seem surprised at my reaction.
You reached for my hand but I clutched tightly to what I wanted (& sometimes still want).
You waited...& waited...
And out of frustration and partial surrender, I released my grip, allowing my ‘stuff’ to fall.
My name You whispered, inviting me to take another step. Not only did You want me to surrender what I had; You wanted me to receive something else; hold onto to a greater fascination. I quickly flashed my arms and then folded them; leaving them that way for a while.
“You’re being unfair Daddy!!” I complained. “What about Your other children?!”
His love began to feel like unwanted attention. I couldn’t see WHY my life was such a big deal. Why’d it matter so much to Him, what I held onto?
I thought the fact that I am His would be enough.
I stood there still, with my back turned and folded arms, occasionally glancing to the side to see if He’d left.
He was still there. He wouldn’t leave.
He looked patient, loving; even though I’ve been a terrible child. I began to reflect and my heart sank. My burden finally weighed me down and I collapsed.
Still He was there...
“Come”, He whispered.
“I ... I can’t make it Lord.”
“Come” He whispered again.
“I don’t deserve it! I’m bitter Lord.”
“Just come my love.” He urged.
I crawled to His feet where I just laid, Desolately
trying to muster up the strength to murmur “Help me”, but the words would not come out...
So there I laid silently, desperately, with no life, no thoughts, no desires...
Knowing somewhere inside that
He’d lift me up.

Dare I go there..?

They say beliefs surrounding religion is one thing that we are advised not to discuss. We are told to be open minded and to respect all the options that are out there. With that said, dare I go there..?

I won't keep silent for I know the truth..
Which other god describes himself like mine?
Don't be afraid. Be a rebel & check it out!

Whose signature can you find on every item of creation?
The very One you doubt.
& Although you doubt the Author of Life, He takes little offense to it because He is still overcome with love for you.
Who else can you think of who's willing to pour out nothing but pure love to you? Who welcomes our empty hands held high in worship as though we are giving Him the greatest gift?
Which other god can you not look into the face of because his glory shines so brightly?
Let's reason.. Buddha? Allah? Confucius? Marx? Brahman? ...Satan?

Many say " I believe in a superior being but I'm just not sure how there can be only one when people worship so many. How do you know yours is true?"
Tell me something.. which other god has sought after your soul, offering a kind of fulfillment which can be found nowhere else?
Which other god chooses his people?
Which other god meets us where we are and has no other requirements except that we accept and follow Him wholeheartedly & love Him all our heart, mind, body & soul?

We all proclaim that humans fall short; that we are imperfect; but by whose standards?? How can the concept of perfection even exist if we say we don't know Perfection Himself?
Never thought about it right?
So which other lord presented another option for the fate of sinners?
Name another lord who welcomes every type of sinner and who declares that by His blood ANYONE can be washed clean?
Can you find another king who left his throne of Grace and became flesh to redeem us and be disgraced by us in the process??

Enlighten me if you can, of another god who disproves of RELIGION but simply urges us to fall deeply in love with the ONLY Righteous One.
You see, I'm open for options but I'm yet to come across another god who declares that he is in need of nothing I can give & even if I were to stop praising him, he would still reign over the earth because the very earth He created would glorify Him!

I can't help but notice that no other offers a love so incomprehensible to all, which shows that His love is above and beyond all.
Where else can I find one who says our fate is not dependent on how good or bad we are and that it is not our works but our faith that makes us righteous?
Find me one who is like the Lord my God, Jehovah, Abbah, Jesus Christ.

To the omnipresent, jealous, holy, perfect God; To the one who gives and takes away; The only Truth, the Reigning King, my heart's desire; the image of perfection who yearns for fallen souls;
To you my Love... I raise my life.

The Vision of my Mission

I
am
on
a
mission.
The urgency of this mission can be compared with.........
Absolutely Nothing.
Drop everything & come with me
as I reveal the vision of this mission.
You see, I was told that there's this complementary Prize being offered to all & well I.. I've become an official promoter - a fisher of men.
The journey has begun & it won't stop until we've reached our Final Destination.
Straight ahead is the sea of Disappointment. I step into waters I was once familiar with, looking for that boy who's been waiting his whole life; that boy who's searched for something all his life, but has been disappointed time and time again. "I understand", I whisper, " But come with me. I've a gift that won't disappoint you."

I-am-on-a-mission-
to the shores that are being washed by the sea of Loneliness. As I arrive, I spot the girl who's lost so many; the girl whose tears, few can see & who strains to fake that smile. She searches for hope in the form of best friends and boyfriends but realises that they come.... & they go. "Come here Lonely One. Hold my hand & I'll take you to this Gift that'll NEVER leave you nor forsake you."
I am on a mission & I must make a stop to my left. I take off my shoes and walk towards the filthy sea of extreme Poverty. Streams of tears flow from my eyes as I wipe the tears of a starving child. I have so much & yet he has so little!, I begin to think. The child clings to my outstretched hand & I lift him into my arms. "I have something for you. Accept it & you will hunger and thirst no more."

I am on a mission.
Excuse my haste but this is urgent!
Look at the thousands drowning in the sea of Blind Contentment. In this sea I find the lady who thinks she has made it; the one with the degrees & the high profile job; the lady who unconsciously gives all credit to money and education. Wading in that same sea is the conceited girl and the Good People who religiously believe that all is well once you are "good". Oh how great their surprise will be when they get to the Final Destination. "Join me Blindly Contented Ones, your eyes will be opened as I take you to the ONLY source of True Contentment."

I am on a mission
& as a fisher of men, I make my way to the sea of Confusion. I walk towards the skeptic teen who wonders 'Can there really be a God in a world filled with pain and confusion?' The atheist tugs at one arm while I firmly hold the other. I glance at the self righteous 'Christian' who's got it all twisted, the Muslim, Hindu & Buddhist who secretly yearns for more. "Snap out of this trance and come with me. You and I know that your soul longs to meet One who is incomparable to all others. I have a Gift that will be hard to resist."

So this is my mission & it's almost complete. The Gift that you've been waiting for has been waiting all along. His name is Jesus Christ & he suffered a most horrific death just so we may be made whole again. Who is like the Lord my God?! In His presence, no one is lacking. There is no disappointment, loneliness, denial, hunger or confusion IN Christ.
Flee from your seas of destruction and take a drink from
the Living Water
for ONLY then, will this mission be accomplished.

Surrender

Surrender...hmm..that's possibly the sweetest & most difficult thing one can do. The majority of this post is the lyrics of a song by Barlowgirl. I downloaded the song 1day even though at that point I had never heard it before. The 1st two days I played the song I thought it sounded nice but I never really listened 2 the words. The third time I ever played the song ( which was the first time I ACTUALLY listened to the words) I ended up in tears instantly. The words sounded a little tooo familiar. They were my EXACT thoughts & God's exact words. Take a look at the words. They mirror the thoughts I once had. The sections in bold are the parts that stood out even more to me.God calls us all to surrender..our lives, our will, our ALL. No matter what your plans are, TRUST ME, God's plans are greater..they are flawless; they are complete.My dreams no longer define me. I am only what He says I am. Take the time to search your lives & surrender anything that you are still holding onto..You won't regret it 4 There is no dissapointment IN God. Love u all!

"Surrender" by Barlowgirl

My hands hold safely to my dreams
Clutching tightly not one has fallen
So many years I've shaped each one
Reflecting my heart showing who I am
Now you're asking me to show
What I'm holding oh so tightly
Can't open my hands can't let go
Does it matter?
Should I show you?
Can't you let me go?

"Surrender, surrender" you whisper gently
You say I will be free
I know but can't you see?
My dreams are me. My dreams are me

You say you have a plan for me
And that you want the best for my life
Told me the world had yet to see
What you can do with one
That's committed to Your callingI know of course what I should do
That I can't hold these dreams forever
If I give them now to You
Will You take them away forever?
Or can I dream again?

"Surrender, surrender" you whisper gently
You say I will be free
I know but can't you see?
My dreams are me. My dreams are me

That Voice...

I'm holding on.
To what exactly?
I'm not so sure as yet.
There's something keeping me though.
It feels safe
so I won't let go.
It's strangely comforting.
I'm being called & I know it
and I'll lovingly accept that calling.
I've been scared and uncertain so many times,
but that voice...
it's...just soo comforting & compelling!
For some reason, I cannot resist. I MUST follow it.
That voice...oh how it sounds familiar! :)
It is the voice...
the one that stands out among the many in my head.
Those voices say, "I don't understand", "Will I be ok?", "Is this really how it's supposed to be?", "Will I lack anything?"
Those voices whine, "But God, this wasn't my plan", What if I feel alone?", "Whyy would put me in that exact position if it wasn't where I belonged?", "Are You sure that if I follow You wholeheartedly I will find the greatest sense of peace?"
But that voice...
That enchanting voice tells me a different story.
It sings my name & I love it.
That voice whispers, "Do not be afraid", "You can't see it all now but trust me."
That voice says "Nuh worry bout what you don't understand right now.", "I knoww it wasn't your plan, but I have a greater one", "Will you lack??? My love, I am, always have been & always will be more than ENOUGH", "Sweetheart, didn't I promise you that I will never fail you?"
So like I said...
I'm holding on.
To what exactly?
That voice...
The Voice of Truth.
That sweet voice is all I have & I'll be forever grateful;
For all my strength & all my hope lies within

that Voice...

The March of the Unqualified

You're broken, yea you know it.
You're losing hope and they begin to notice.
Eyes watch as your smile fades
into the shadow that still lingers.
You're losing strength and you can feel it.
Things aren't the same and they can tell.
You want to let it all go and fall...
this time not on your knees, but on your face.
You beg for freedom
but this still has you bound.

They wonder where your smile has gone;
others question, "Where is your God?"
but they can't hear when your Lord whispers,
"..as I was with Moses, so I will be with thee:
I will not fail thee nor forsake thee."

Don't be discouraged,
don't you know that we're Soldiers!
Though broken, torn and weary, we NEVER stop marching;
for we march not to the beat of this world,
but to the beat of Eternal Hope.

March on little soldier,
I'll hold your hand...just like you held mine.
Lift your head brave soldier,
& remember your words to me,
"The Anchor holds, though the ship is battered.
I know it's hard, but God is able."

March on dear soldier,
for this is not the end.
God hears your cry..
but this is bigger than you.

Hang on dear soldier,
you MUST survive,
so another success story can be told
& our Lord be glorified!



Dedicated to O.J
Love you my fellow sister in Christ

Sincerely, Broken Girl.

I'm the Broken girl
who's had her dreams, hopes & ambitions, shattered to pieces;
The Broken girl
who expectantly held onto those pieces, only to then have them ripped from my hands.
I'm the Broken girl
who's lost what meant most to her;
The Broken girl
who asks " Where does this end Lord?!"
I'm the Broken girl
who gave it all but can expect nothing in return
The Broken girl
who falls so often while trying to follow in her Saviour's steps.
I am the Broken girl
who's afraid to look up and afraid to hope;
The Broken girl
whose tears fall not only from her eyes, but from her soul.

I am the Broken girl
but pity me not,
for I rest in the arms of an unbreakable God!
I am the Broken girl
but I will be mended;
For I've been privileged to go under the knife of the Great Surgeon,
fortunate to be in the palms of the Great Potter,
and blessed to be in the presence of the True Healer.

YES I am the Broken girl
but I'm not ashamed!
For these scars are proof of Healing;
they no longer reflect pain.

My heart's cry - FILL ME

Is it possible for me to drop everything I've been holding & just run to You?
Is it possible for me to just have You, in Your Purest sense?
That's what I want - You; in an undiluted form.
Where's this Enchanted place Lord, where I can go to find ONLY You?

You told me to let go of my dreams and hold onto You instead and since then I just can't get enough.
Desperate is how it sounds & desperate is exactly what I am.
Is it possible for me to get my fill Lord?
Is it possible that You'll give me as much of You as I desire?
Is it possible that You long for my embrace even more than I crave Yours?
You stand there with outstretched arms, eagerly waiting don't You? :)

Purify me Daddy and meet me in this Enchanted place.
Reveal Yourself to me, EVERY..single..day, so that no day becomes meaningless.
Meet me face-to-face that I may cling to Your presence.
I want eyes and a mind that are fixated on You.
I want to sit at Your feet like a child; in complete awe & fascination.
I want to sit with a heart wide open, that's ready to pour out all I've brought to offer & with cupped palms..ready to get my fill.

Fill this desperate little girl Abba, for her soul yearns for You!
Fill this desperate little girl Lord, and let it overflow!
Let it overflow like the Mighty waters, so that others will see
that You are her Source,
And with cupped palms, run desperately to get their fill.

It's all about You

After listening to the song ‘It’s all about You’ repeatedly, I could acknowledge my most well learnt lesson in my walk with Christ – it’s not about me & it never was . When I gave my life to Christ, that should’ve meant giving him my will, my desires, my hopes, my dreams, my talents & receiving His instead. I had difficulty doing that because I wanted to see my dreams become a reality; I wanted to help God plan; be His little assistant or something. I still had hopes of doing this n becoming that, getting this & experiencing that, simply because I saw it suitable and that’s normal right? Well…I’ve realized that doing that means that I’m still holding on to a part of my life instead of leaving it in the Potter’s hand. Thank God he’s released my grip from my own life & opened my eyes. Since then, everything started to make sense. I understood why things happened the way they did in my life and I began to understand what God’s ulterior motive is in the lives of all Christians. This song explains it well – “It’s all about You Jesus & all this is for You, for Your Glory & Your Fame.”

Everything God does in our lives is for HIS glory. We can now see why God allows both good and bad to happen 2 us- so that he can be glorified. God doesn’t allow anything in life to happen unless it will bring Him glory. You see, we don’t live for ourselves; our lives no longer belong to us (or so it should be). Good things don’t necessarily happen to u because you’re good & bad things don’t necessarily happen to u because you’re bad. When something good happens in your life, it either results in you giving God glory or it touches someone else and then God is glorified in their eyes. When things don’t go our way at 1st and then God takes us through it, who gets glorified in the end? Yup, that would be God.

I’ve completely given up my life. It didn’t happen in one day and it definitely was a humbling experience. I’ve gone from overwhelmingly questioning God, to complete surrender. I no longer ask “Why can’t I fully focus on the things I do best, if I’m good at them?”, “How can you take this dream from me when I’ve had it all my life?”, “Why would you ask for my best gift; what means most to me, if You blessed me with it?” God needs things to play out a particular way so that he can be honoured; so people can see his greatness. He needs us to see that his grace is sufficient. He needed me to see that He alone is enough.

Our talents, our strengths, our weaknesses, our ambitions, our friends, our future and our circumstance are not by chance. All that we do and all that we go through affects someone, somewhere and it all brings glory to God. So….
I'll obey him because I love him
I'll still have faith because I trust him
I'll offer my best sacrifice, because he's worth it.
He alone is God & I'll surrender to His ways

~. Back to the Basics .~

Open our eyes Lord that we may see how far we've drifted from Your will.
Father forgive us, for:

* we have questioned Your Word and Your will, and called it "intellect".

* we have aimlessly attended church, and called it "worship".

* we have kept silent when others boldly went against Your will, and called it "tolerance".

* we have polluted our lips with profanity, and called it "freedom of speech".

* we have exposed and wrongly embellished YOUR TEMPLE, and called it "fashion".

* we have accepted unholy or profane music and called it "diversity".

* we have tried to juggle being of this world and being spiritual Christians, and called it "versatility".

* we have blindly requested things from You, and called it "prayer".

* we have repeatedly praised ourselves instead of giving YOU the credit, and called it "self-esteem" or "confidence".

* we have been sexually immoral, and called it "human nature".

* we have ignored You, doubted You, cursed You, disobeyed You, and STILL we call it "Love".

Hear our cry oh Lord and forgive us, for we know what we have done.
Guide us as we return... to the BASICS OF LIFE.

(Actually written 2 years ago)